Jesse

So since the last update, I have lost pretty much all desire to own a PS3. I still may want one, but at this point in time, Ive come to my senses and know that its entirely stupid, even if I do earn it for myself. I think once that awesome looking DCUniverse game comes out my interest may get sparked again.

That being said, I definately want to keep on my 25 in 2.5 months deal going, I figure Ill just transfer the end goal over to something else. I could use some new hockey equipment, my helmet is pretty old and starting to hurt to wear, plus I have a hole or two in my gloves growing. Not on the same cost-scale as a PS3, but lord knows I love to shop for hockey equipment.

I am a total girl about shopping when it comes to hockey equipment. Normally I just like to get in and get out, no matter what the object of my desire is. Even for comic books I prefer not to dick around - just get in there and spend cash. Clothes - music - comics - whatever, I dont like to waste time. But not hockey equipment, I could seriously spend hours looking in Pro Hockey Life. If I do go buy some equipment, Ill have to leave Karla at home. Ive brought her a few times and I always end up feeling bad for dragging her along.

Back on point, after 2 weeks Im sort of on track. I lost 4.5lbs in the first two weeks. Normally I wouldnt be overly happy with that, but I actually caught a cold right in the middle of that and was too tired and blah from sickness to actually work out. I forced myself to eat healthy while I was sick (I was mildly impressed with myself actually), and thats the only reason I lost any weight.

In some ways it sickens me that I can lose almost five pounds just by changing my dietary habbits. What the fuck was I eating before - it honestly wasnt that bad in my opinion. But mostly I am just positive about the first two weeks, I figure if I can continue those eating habbits, plus double it up with exercise (hockey twice this week already - work outs tomorrow) that the 25lbs wont be an issue. I get that itll be harder as it goes along, but I still feel that with two months left, 20lbs shouldnt be an issue. Have to see how Fridays weigh-in goes. Im optimistic, but cautiously.

Other notes:

I think it may be a bit of me maturing, as well as a bit of the winter blahs, but I have zero desire to go out right now. Im sick of the typical winter stuff, and just dont want to go out and spend money when I can have just as much or more fun staying in. Its fun for me to stay in and just be quiet right now. I have almost no interest in drinking (which is ODD for me), and less interest in seeing people. Im sure once it gets warm and fun to be outside Ill be rareing to go and be silly and see people. But right now its march, its grey, its cold, and I just want to watch episodes of Delocated, Important Things, East Bound & Down, and Lost. God Bless Television.

I had more to write, but the west coast run of How I Met Your Mother is about to start. Add it to the above list. Add Heroes too, even though I could shit out better writing.

Jesse.

I really want a PS3.

For a few reasons:
1. I have an HD TV in my room, and I was at Best Buy and the PS3 is gorgeous in HD.
2. Secretly I want a Blue Ray player, even though I feel they are stupid.
3. I really would like to play the AWESOME NHL games, and they are not released on the Wii.
But mostly:
4. THIS

I'm more of a Marvel guy, but MAN does that game look awesome. It's like a fantasy of mine. I need it.

But here's the problem with me getting a PS3, I don't need it in any way, and honestly, I probably won't use it very much. It's a completely unnecessary item for me to buy. I've got the cash, it wouldn't be a big deal for me to purchase it, but deep down, I know I don't need it and that I shouldn't get it.

But, at the same time, I would really like to lose some weight. Scratch that, I need to lose some weight.

I've always struggled with my weight, and at some point in time I was actually in pretty good shape. Then I met Karla, fell in love, and as you would expect, I got really lazy and stopped caring about staying in shape. For the most part, I feel we only try and look good as human beings in order to attract the opposite sex. I didn't need to attract anyone, so I let myself go for a shit.

Recently (past 6 months) I've started to turn it around (mostly because I was in the worst shape I've ever been in) and I've put more of an effort into getting in better shape. I've been ok at it. When I'm committed, I'm really good at it, and dropping weight isn't bad or hard at all. But I get lazy and lose incentive. Again, I've got a spouse (basically), so why do I need to try hard to do something?

Basically I need a good incentive to keep up my good habbits (other then y'know, a better lifestyle and potentitally longer life), so this is the point where the two independent points of my story merge.

I am now losing weight to get a PS3.

I cannot justify buying it straight up. No way. BUT....

If it were a gift to myself for completing a weight goal... I could do that.

Yes, this is how I trick myself into doing things ladies and germs!

I would like to lose 25 pounds in this scheme. I could stand to lose more then that, but I don't want to make this too long/out of reach. I want a PS3 like yesterday. I also would like to do this probably twice, but we'll stick to the first one for now.

25 Pounds for a PS3
So today is the day that I started my scheme. February 16th. I'm giving mysef until the end of April. So 25lbs in two and a half months.

I feel this is both challenging, but well within reach. I KNOW that I can that, if I stick to my regiment of execise and working out.

I also thing it's somewhat helpful for me to keep something of a diary while doing this, to try and keep track of how I'm doing/how I feel about it, and keep myself on track. I think writing helps me stay focus, gives it something more tangible then just my thoughts. Plus if anyone still reads this, they can make fun of me for crying about it. In addition, it gives me an excuse to keep my LiveJournal alive.

I've purged my life from a lot of online elements lately (deleted my Myspace, cut my MSN list by at least half, etc). I've felt the need lately to just get rid of some of the clutter/uselessnes, and a lot of my online accounts are useless. But, I have a strong affinity for livejournal, so I look for excuses to keep it alive. This helps.

In conclusion, 2.5 months for 25lbs. I'll keep this updated, because I know you care about me wanting a PS3.

Jesse